Saturday, December 31, 2011

the 89th page (where have you prayed?)

Today, I want you remember some lines to a song I sing.
I Love You,
For we are the slaves of Allah.

*p/s: for a better quality, watch in You Tube :)

May Allah bless *

the 88th page (Happy 2012 ?)

hold my hand

Dan bahawa sesungguhnya, Dia lah yang menyebabkan tertawa (bergembira),
dan menyebabkan menangis (berdukacita);

Dan bahawa sesungguhnya, Dia lah yang mematikan dan menghidupkan;

Dan bahawa sesungguhnya, Dia lah yang menciptakan pasangan - lelaki dan perempuan,

Dari (setitis) air mani ketika dipancarkan (ke dalam rahim);

Dan bahawa sesungguhnya, Dia lah yang tetap menghidupkan semula (makhluk-makhluk yang mati);

Dan bahawa sesungguhnya, Dia lah yang memberikan (sesiapa yang dikehendakiNya) apa yang diperlukannya dan memberikannya tambahan yang boleh disimpan; 

An-Najm 53: 43-48

Maka hendaklah kamu sujud kepada Allah ,
dan beribadatlah kamu kepadaNya (dengan sepenuh-penuh tauhid)

53 : 62

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

the 87th page

something is, glowing in the darkness.

I wonder
one day I'll be going
almost dying,
which memory
will I bring
will be vividly remembered
on a deathbed.
I wonder
I ever have one.

Saturday, December 24, 2011

the 86th page

it's not an empty side. No.

And if you're alone, I hope you know that I'm alone too.
So I believe we will be friends.



You are beautiful and loved by the universe that made you,
with every atom and star moving in perfect alignment to make you,


Tuesday, December 20, 2011

the 85th page

...because there's always spaces, for two.

I'd always wanted to ask, "Are you okay......?"

and I'd want you to answer,

"... I'm not."

Saturday, December 17, 2011

the 84th page

life expected me to live.
i expected that life will leave me.
yesterday life chose me.

but who does not choose me
and what does not choose me
and when does not choose me
and where does not choose me
and & how does not choose me

either ;

who am i suppose to choose then?
what am i suppose to choose then?
when am i suppose to choose then?
where am i suppose to choose then?
& how am i suppose to choose then?

....then i decided to choose,  " Why? "

maybe because......


Friday, December 16, 2011

Friday, December 9, 2011

the 82nd page

It's just, one needs to be readjusted, sometimes.

I miss the vibrations.
I miss the sounds.
I miss the songs.
I miss the beats.
I miss the thumps.
I miss the electrocuted.
I miss the's look.
I miss the's ways.
I miss the fights.
I miss the's teeth.
I miss the rays.
I miss the hots.
I miss the's ghost.
I miss the best dreams.
I miss the's smiling.
I miss the's lie.
I miss the's laughing.
I miss the's stare.
I miss the's walk.
I miss the's talk.
I miss the's cry.
I miss the's hunch.
I miss the's promises.
I miss the's slouch.
I miss the's height.
I miss the want.
I miss the need.
I miss the helps.
I miss the years.
I miss the's imperfections.
I miss the's perfections.
I miss the time stopping.
I miss you.
I miss me.

I miss the miss.

I miss the, the.

Friday, December 2, 2011

the 81st page

Kau juga banyak silap. Tak perlu berdegar, Lebihkan mendengar!

Jangan cerita tentang halal haram
Jangan bicara dosa pahala
Jangan lagak kau bagai tahu segala-galanya
Jika kau masih tidak meninggalkan dosa-dosa
Jika masih belum kau kumpul cukup-cukup pahala.

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

the 80th page

I said too much I had nothing left to say.

then, who else knows me better?

Sunday, November 27, 2011

the 79th page

"Love me when I least deserve it,
because that's when I really need it."

Swedish proverb

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

the 78th page

Fall on me.

The lung is empty but,
I could never breathe in enough.

I am. Tired.

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

the 77th page

Will us be happy next year?

Let me be happy next year.


Tuesday, November 8, 2011

the 76th page

"Where are we going?"

Let 'I' be somebody to somebody.
Yes. I .

Saturday, October 29, 2011

the 75th page

It will be a long longing. to you.

I do not know how to say this but,
the heart is smiling!

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

the 74th page

the world is funny, kah kah!!

Life is funny isn't it?
I'm crying but laughing!
Life is funny isn't it?

Monday, October 17, 2011

the 73rd page

It is a bond. No. It was..

" I didn't wanna remember the friendship
that was broken beyond repair.
Because every time I did, a part of me died.
Because we could have been best friends for life.
Best friends. For life."

I tried.

Thursday, October 6, 2011

the 72nd page

Such a panoramic heart!

The memory once here.

Thank God. He gives me some feels.

I don't want to stop feeling, because I'll die.

Monday, October 3, 2011

the 71st page

The best part is,
Nobody knows, either tear or water.

...mengapa takdir Tuhan begitu?
Sengaja menguji,
Sengaja menduga,
dengan sakit ini,
dengan sabar dan rasa,
mengapa takdir Tuhan begitu?
jika memang,
maka ampuni aku...

Monday, September 26, 2011

the 70th page

It was not strong enough, wasn't it?

If I promised to never hurt you,
Can you promise to never leave me?



It's even deeper, and I'm dead.
I died. I will just turn.
Thank you for everything.

Thursday, September 22, 2011

the 69th page

wish upon THE CREATOR of lights..

Perancangan-perancangan Allah adalah yang terbaik.

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

the 68th page

The blade....throw it away please

Look at me!
Now watch me!
Clean this bleed.

Sunday, September 11, 2011

the 67th page

Keep you drowning

It is freaking painful in my chest.
It is full of blood, as you can see.
I couldn't breath! I couldn't !!!!
The time had been so cruel.
I am stopped. We are stopped.
Please, do feel this pain too...

Friday, September 9, 2011

the 66th page

I could hear and you could see.

Now I have nothing else left to say.
Now it's your turn, you speak to me.
Speak softly.
I'm waiting, if you could read.
Give me chance, if you would let.

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

the 65th page

Could you feel it? Yes I could!

I whispered,
for you to let me go,
I didn't say you have to leave me.
Simple isn't it?

Friday, August 19, 2011

the 64th page

Sejauh ini aku pergi,
engkau, engkau, engkau dan ENGKAU kejar dan kejar lagi
Cuba untuk terus tikam dan bunuh aku lagi dan lagi dan lagi...
Aku yang dah mati, engkau yang masih belum puas hati.
I bleed, I bleed ;-(
I don't need you.

Sunday, August 14, 2011

the 63rd page

I didn't say it was your fault.
I said I was going to blame you!

Tiba-tiba aku rasa bosan dengan hidup.
Disebabkan kepenatan bangun kembali dari tikaman.
Disebabkan keletihan mencuci kelukaan.
biarkan aku pergi.

Saturday, July 16, 2011

the 62nd page

It was super fast. I got crashed, and I was badly injured.
I need a doctor.

Nothing is faster than the speed of thought. I can look at anything and think of you.


Friday, July 1, 2011

Thursday, June 23, 2011

the 60th page

It's only 5. Another 5 are on your side, which is a perfect 10.

Kau mengatakan,

"Dalam tiap takdir kesalahanmu padaku, aku sentiasa berharap takdir kemaafanku mengiringinya.


Ku jawab lirih,

"Dalam tiap takdir kejatuhanmu, semoga tertakdir pula huluran tanganku"

via FB - NAMZ

Sunday, June 19, 2011

the 59th page

or maybe here??


I'm not expecting for anyone to understand this,
But I have eyes which are blinding me
I have ears which are deafening me
I have lips which are biting me
and I too, have heart that is not very strong but fragile.

I need a place where I could cry out loud
I really need a place where I could laugh out loud
and I desperately need a place
where I could feel nothing but lost and happiness and tranquility.
but I do have no places to go.... nowhere
maybe not until now.

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

the 59th page

of course it does hurt to fall for you! Now help me.

You want some challenges?
Better catch me with all your guts!!

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

the 58th page

I could see without peeking. Do not... I repeat,
DO NOT ever underestimate me!

You know what?
I'll do what it takes to everything I'm doin'
I'm not looking back.
Not even a glance.
when I want it, I mean it !

Sunday, June 5, 2011

the 58th page

We are in the same glass,
but different dimension.

" ... cinta dan keinginan untuk memiliki adalah berbeda."


Thursday, June 2, 2011

the 57th page

tell me, how do I survive without you?
and tell me, how you'd live without me?

I wanted to scream,
but you are deaf.
I wanted to scream again,
but I am muted.
I could only see.
The only colour left.
which strangely gives me sparks
to breath ..

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

the 56th page

I might be huge. but I might not be strong enough.
I need you.

Love is never about finding the hand perfectly fits yours.
It's about finding that one person who is willing to hold hands no matter how unfit it may be.

Saturday, May 21, 2011

the 55th page

It was too deep and I almost die drowning in your love.
But then it was you who provided me with bubbles.
I see light and hope.

You are reading a story...
A journey
... seeking God.
You might be indifferent
because it's corny.
but let me tell you,
When the Light of Guidance
to be in The Custody of Benevolence...
It's A gift from The Almighty!

Friday, May 20, 2011

the 54th page

It's about the silent murder.

I am sorry.

I apologize.

I'll fight!

Till death!

Till I win !

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

the 53rd page

Just let the footsteps do all the talking along this sidewalk
and lead us to anywhere our destination is.


I don’t know why, You said goodbye
Just let me know you didn't go forever my love
Please tell me why, You make me cry
I beg you please I'm on my knees if that's what you want
me to

Never knew that it would go so far
When you left me on that boulevard
Come again you would release my pain
And we could be lovers again

Just one more chance, Another dance
And let me feel it isn't real that I’ve been losing you
This sun will rise, Within your eyes
Come back to me and we will be happy together

Never knew that it would go so far
When you left me on that boulevard
Come again you would release my pain
And we could be lovers again

Maybe today, I’ll make you stay
A little while just for a smile and love together
For I will show, A place I know
In Tokyo where we could be happy forever

Never knew that it would go so far
When you left me on that boulevard
Come again you would release my pain
And we could be lovers again

Never knew that it would go so far
When you left me on that boulevard
Come again you would release my pain
And we could be lovers again

Monday, May 16, 2011

the 52nd page

Just don't cry, we'll get wet.
We are attached to one another, can't you see?!

I gratefully thanked the Lord,
for another chance over a mistake.

I gratefully thanked the Lord,
for having me born in a family,
I would never find a replacement.

I gratefully thanked the Lord,
for giving me friends who would called
in the middle of midnight
just to say, 'Goodnight'.

I gratefully thanked the Lord,
for He granted everything I wished for,
even I sometimes blamed the world for not being fair.

and I surreptitiously thanked the Lord,
for not letting a drop of tears to even leave me,
when my heart made a decision to leave.

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

the 51st page

Red is okayyy...

Robbi yasir walatu'asir wa atimu bil khoir.

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

the 50th page

Love lies on the other side of the half mark.
A pure heart sees it clearly.

I couldn't find words lately. Not even 'a'...
What was I supposed to say?
The Heart is a puzzle to be solved.
...given to us. to you. to me.
but only God solves heart.
He knows better. and I believe!

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

the 49th page

I'm lost. I'm not running away from you.
and don't just sit there. Search for me!
I'm trying to get back to you!

I heard you. I heard you calling out my name.
But I couldn't see you.
I won't be far, and you can't be far.
Promise me, we'll find each other.

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

the 48th page

We are playing the 'hide-and-seek' game...

...and now I'm starting to get scared
if you couldn't find me.

Monday, April 25, 2011

the 47th page

People 'throw' and people take.
Lebih baik menjadi orang kaya yang dermawan
berbanding orang miskin yang bersabar.

Money come and money go and money come again.
Enjoy life, learn, and appreciate it.

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

the 46th page

You might think I'm dead.
Yes, I'm dead famous, but I'm still alive!

Bukan mudah untuk terus bertahan dalam
pura-pura yang menidakkan perasaan.

Sunday, February 27, 2011

the 45th page

It's keep holding on.

...but we have to.

WE have to.

Saturday, February 26, 2011

the 44th page

Stop your underestimation!

Everything has it's own beauty,
but not everyone sees it.

Sunday, February 20, 2011

the 43rd page

Meski kaki merapuh, hati kekal teguh.

..bersimpuh untuk sezarah ampunan-Nya...
Namun indah.